Day 13 - Saturday 8th December 2012

Another day goes by and nothing changes. Me and my sister still sleeps in till after 10.30 am. Luckily today we woke up just in time for my mum to call us from back home. We managed to get my mum to log onto Skype and got her to wake up my baby sister. You see even though it was mid-day here in the US but back home it was Sunday morning. That meant it was Sunday 9th December my mum's birthday. So back to the point, while video calling my parents on Skype, I hinted to my youngest sister to go get my gifts that I had left behind for this occasion. It was the only gift i managed to buy before I had left. I have no idea, but time just seemed to fly by so fast. I literally could not keep track of the time I had left. I felt bad for my dad and sister but there was nothing I could do. I didn't really have that much money saved up too. Again back to the point, my sister came back into my parents room and we all started singing Happy birthday to my mum. The reaction to the gifts weren't what I was expecting since I did spend quite a lot on her for her birthday present. I bought her a PANDORA bracelet with three charms as well as a Gift Voucher for the beauty salon that I was working at. Knowing my mum she thought of the money that was wasted more than the thought and effort of the present given to her. Sometimes it really hurts me, especially how hard I try and yet I can't manage to make her happy.

My cousin had work so we waited for her to come home yet again so that we could head out. We drove to Costco so that my cousin could go buy three Annual Universal Studios Passes. Afterwards we headed home to get ready for church. I didn't know what to expect from this mass. Luckily it was a Vietnamese mass. But the church it self was so beautiful, very spacious, and very traditional. They even had a Thieu Nhi Thanh The. That took up a whole isle of seats, there must have been  at least 20 rows filled with children with all the different coloured scarves.

It reminded me of the times that I was still in Thieu Nhu Thanh The, I really miss being part of that loving environment where all our friends was like one big family. I wish I could go back, but it's just too late now. Everything has changed and so has everyone. For some reason every time I get the opportunity to see all of them there is just this awkward tension in the atmosphere. It's as though the past two years has caused a wedge between all of them and me. Sometimes I just wish I still had kept in touch with them. But all I can do now is reminisce and regret the gap between our relationships.

After mass service, we traveled to Signal Hill and observed the view, over looking the city of Long Beach. The view was so beautiful, it was so nice and calming just sitting down and looking over to the horizon of the Long Beach lights. Times like that I wish I was back home experiencing it with someone  who is close to me someone like my Biffle :) My mission when I get back home is to get my Ps and go for drives just trying to find spots where there is a view similar to that. As I sat there staring at the horizon I thought to myself. In this big world I am just a small insignificant part of it, so possibly what I do and what happens to me wouldn't affect the world. I don't understand it much but my mind goes to a dark place when I'm able to just think about it.

Anyways at night we video called my mum again, because my aunty's family was over. After everyone talked to each other and my cousin Quinn saw my cousin's baby Alyssa. Afterwards was a show and tell of all the jewelry my aunty had bought for my mum, just to find give an idea for my mum. After showing my mum everything and said our good byes, it was off to our rooms as tomorrow will be an early start because we're going Universal Studios. I can't wait to go Universal Studios it will be so much fun, hopefully i will bump into Ellen Degeneres. I really want to meet her :(

"Parents are the only ones obligated to love you, from the rest of the world you had to earn it." Ann Brashares

xoxo bmnt